I've been having strange dreams lately. My dreams are normally rather childish, like something you'd see in a cartoon from the 80's. Thundercats, GI Joe, stuff like that. Lately they've featured people from my past, and seem to be deeper. I can't help but think what they mean, if anything.
Here's a recent one involving a girl from a couple of years ago that I dated briefly (so brief that the intimacy of the dream is shocking to me). For the sake of anonymity I'll call this girl Cheetara:
I'm in a parking garage, waiting. Suddenly a car pulls up, and it's Cheetara and her current boyfriend. She's pregnant, or atleast I know she is, even if it's unseen, and it's mine. Everyone knows it's mine, and I have some sort of kingship over this newbie because of it. He leaves us to it, because she's about to have the baby, even though she's walking and talking normally like there's no baby at all. We walk outside, along a beach that leads to the hospital. Cheetara is walking on an elevated path or sidewalk above me and beside me, while I'm in the sand. I'm so happy about the baby I can barely stand it, I feel like I'm about to pop myself. "Watch this," I said, as I prance and skip in circles as if I'm airplane, then explode from my knees into the air as if I'm a merman jumping out of the shimmering water, so desperate for her to see my joy. We walk further and eventually I sit her down by the path she was on, just before we reach the hospital. We're eye level now, and I rub her pregnant belly, now large and plainly visible. I can't stop thinking that my baby, our baby, is inside. Not one thought creeps into my head about the other guy, or any of our problems, there's just joy. I look Cheetara in the eye, wanting to tell her how much I love her, but instead say, "I just want to let you know, I love this baby so much." She smiles as if she knows I love her too, but neither of us utters a word about it...
Then I turned into the Cobra commander and ripped my baby from her belly, leaving her for dead as I gazed into my son's newborn eyes. Then I woke up.
1/19/09
Cheetara and Our Baby
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Hmmm.....interesting and yet a little disturbing.... :) Fun dream though!
It is a little disturbing, but that's what I love about it...
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